Growing Pains

It has now only been 9 days since Mike has left but it seems like so much more. It is really daunting to look at the count-down chart and see that we are only on day 9 out of 196 days. Ella is really having a difficult time. She has become even more emotional and is pretty much whining and crying most of the evenings. She has said that she wishes daddy were here because she feels sad all the time. She also said yesterday when I wanted to sit with her that "I just want to be lonely right now". I pretty sure she meant alone but I do know how she feels. It is very lonely raising a family by yourself. But I'm not ALL by myself. I know without my faith, I'd be a complete and total mess - unable to withstand 2 screaming kiddos without any way of comforting them (not without a lack of trying). I find I am at the end of myself a lot these days. But the bright side of that is that I rely on HIM more and not myself or Mike. Mike was always my rock, my go-to person. I know this will be a great time of growing for both Mike and I. I guess there is a reason why they are called growing pains.